Big Hazman

I was watching the fat folks on mtv and their battle in losing weight and it reminded me of how i lost weight.

As a kid i was a normal little skinny shit but then i moved on to junior high where i could steal any food i wanted, i did just that. And slowly over time my belly started growing. Obviously my mentality was elsewhere, because i must have not cared enough about girls to change. I think i preferred the snacks and soda over a slice of pussy. I was always an active kid and did play sports and all but i was always a big boy. If you know me now and you were to look at a pic of me on my jr high soccer team im pretty sure youd be rolling on floor laughing. And i stayed a big boy and never really gave a fuck about changing or maybe i did but i wasnt down for the sacrifice. But i think at one point i hit 250, and even though i might not have looked like a 250 i told myself that things had to change.
And something that really changed my life was 1)my bike and 2)college. My bike gave me something to do. Not only was it something i loved to do but it was also a massive workout because i dont know what it means to go slow. And college was an onslaught in change of mentality. Biking was my escape, and when I was stressed i would call my rides "existential" because i would ride away and think about a lot of things. Plus i learned my way around santa barbara and i know the city better than most cats. And biking was a perfect remedy for a hangover. Furthermore I played a lot of soccer with homies and started working out at the gym. And when summer came around i hit the gym literally everyday and i watched what i ate, or rather didnt have shit to eat. Either way, i learned it is all a matter of mentality. I might have been sore, i might have been tired, i might have been feeling lazy but i still hopped on my bike, still hit the gym, still went on runs, still played ball, still hit the field. And the results showed. This is my relentless nature. This is me now. Im a fucking wolf! Even when you think you cant, you keep pressing, keep pushing. I cant remember the last time i was the weight that i am now. I am happy with myself and eat whatever i want but know that a massive workout ensues. But who doesnt dream of washboard abs? eh maybe someday. aha